Sunday, August 31, 2003
The power of a group. Ever since I released the link to the revue photos, the hit rate goes to one and another history high. Today it reached it peak hit rate today 365 today, it'll go up to 400 before the mid night. 400 hits a day. That is mad, really it's all about people's passion to see themselves, if I say it's Bohan's photo porfolio maybe it'll be 40 not 400. However as you can see, that 400 hits goes majorly to the CSE Revue password protected folders, on the other hand, they might track a very small percent of people actually go into my other albums and untimately to my favorate links folder and come here. (Which would be approx 1% in 3 months duration). As I speak, the number goes up to 373. It is sheer joy for me as well to see those number goes up and up. 375 goes up by 2. That just the time I typed one sentence. I am amazed myself. Haha.
On the other hand, my film has to be delayed gives me more time to record more music and interview more people. Interesting to see what's the outcome. Before any of that, I need to fix my seng first.
On the other hand, my film has to be delayed gives me more time to record more music and interview more people. Interesting to see what's the outcome. Before any of that, I need to fix my seng first.
There was a lot to write for this weekend. Main focus is the shift in weekly schedule and dual personalities and the big brother. Well, after involve in the Revue for so long now, every one is like a family now, create a nice atomesphere. However there are people has a strong will to show off or let's say to dominate, alpha beta. So really much big brother show does have its meaning inside. It also invovles pubilc acceptance.
That is not what I am interested to talk about. What am I interested is Aim. What I am impressed is her dual personality. That's true for many cases, someone can be like one person at one time and completly different other times. I am confused. For instance, on Satursday, while she is dancing, she is full of energy and lots of smiles that does greatly inspired the surrounding people include me, esp me. The passion you can see through your naked eyes. For once or twice, I thought Aim was very cute, a friendly and blah. However, the other part when the happy mood is gone, everyone has their normal side which can be less feminine and loving. However different person has their unique dynamic range. For people who has large dynamic range (in plain English) that is can be quite different in two instances are often brilliant or crazy or blah. For some reason I increasingly feel insecure, this seem not to be a private blog anymore despite the fact most people even given them the address they won't read more than 2 lines + the fact only 2 views it at the moment.
That is the question I talked about earlier which is who is the target audience, myself or for the public. Am I afraid someone into my personal blog for instance, I DON'T LIKE BLAH. however that run the risk one day if the person get read it, it will surely piss them off. But again that's when you assume that they are bother to ready your 10,000 words + blog from day 1.
Life in revue is very interesting. Now I felt slightly bad as some of my lines get cut, which still gives me quite bit above average stage time, but still I didn't get the most stage time. (well, as English is not my first language, for the current screentime I am happy). Can't wait.
On the other hand, there are more than I imagined to handle such as assignment SENG, they are going to kill me, my expertise is in Design, but till now I still didn't give them a good one yet. I have to do something or otherwise I will be DEAD.
Booking tickets seem important, tomorrow.
That is not what I am interested to talk about. What am I interested is Aim. What I am impressed is her dual personality. That's true for many cases, someone can be like one person at one time and completly different other times. I am confused. For instance, on Satursday, while she is dancing, she is full of energy and lots of smiles that does greatly inspired the surrounding people include me, esp me. The passion you can see through your naked eyes. For once or twice, I thought Aim was very cute, a friendly and blah. However, the other part when the happy mood is gone, everyone has their normal side which can be less feminine and loving. However different person has their unique dynamic range. For people who has large dynamic range (in plain English) that is can be quite different in two instances are often brilliant or crazy or blah. For some reason I increasingly feel insecure, this seem not to be a private blog anymore despite the fact most people even given them the address they won't read more than 2 lines + the fact only 2 views it at the moment.
That is the question I talked about earlier which is who is the target audience, myself or for the public. Am I afraid someone into my personal blog for instance, I DON'T LIKE BLAH. however that run the risk one day if the person get read it, it will surely piss them off. But again that's when you assume that they are bother to ready your 10,000 words + blog from day 1.
Life in revue is very interesting. Now I felt slightly bad as some of my lines get cut, which still gives me quite bit above average stage time, but still I didn't get the most stage time. (well, as English is not my first language, for the current screentime I am happy). Can't wait.
On the other hand, there are more than I imagined to handle such as assignment SENG, they are going to kill me, my expertise is in Design, but till now I still didn't give them a good one yet. I have to do something or otherwise I will be DEAD.
Booking tickets seem important, tomorrow.
Saturday, August 30, 2003
Last night was SPECTACULAR! It was and it finished very late about 11:30pm, so that makes me very sleepy by the time when I got home. Even though I have the intention to blog. Bottom line is I don't know what am I missing in the previous years, it was truly fun and inspiring. CSE Revue got to be better, actually I am going to be part of something SPETACULAR, that makes me very exciting, also makes me want to give the best performance to the audience.
The dancing and singing are beautiful, wait, have to go 9:18AM, take bus to school join the 10:00 -7:00 Rehersal. It' just like back to back shift.
The dancing and singing are beautiful, wait, have to go 9:18AM, take bus to school join the 10:00 -7:00 Rehersal. It' just like back to back shift.
Even though Kosol is nice enough to let me have the possibility to use Opera at SCHOOL. (It is great, Opera is so much better than the rest bunch) Anyway, however I running out of IP quota, so everything I use most often with Opera like the Wand Wizard for Yahoo and hotmail and dpreview. Quota is running out. Wah. Anyway, I just tried the new macro shooting ability that make me realise there are many many more possiblities, so maybe delaying isn't a bad thing. I can certainly shoot more footage like the revue crowd. (But what should I ask them to say)
Tonight is the exciting law revue. Caroline finished her assignment one, it'll be interesting to see the outcomes. I have to write to Jenifer to ensure that I can work on seng next week or so.
Tonight is the exciting law revue. Caroline finished her assignment one, it'll be interesting to see the outcomes. I have to write to Jenifer to ensure that I can work on seng next week or so.
Friday, August 29, 2003
Work in two nights in a row earned me some 100 dollars. Caroline called me almost everyday. I met Kosol for HCI meeting, he is very friendly, we talk some joke share some fun. Very soon it'll be like 4 weeks nights all on revue. And I just found out that every Thurs the seminar room is booked by Comp Soc. Well, now I am in compsoc, I could very easily ask them to let me use the room from 5:30 to 6:30. However, I could also use it as a official delay to my movie. While working hard on the movie website, I can send that out stating the room vacancy problems and then later spend time on the film editing which could cost a lot of time. And I am sure it'll be better than in a rush.
News flash, internet crime, lots of liars around the world. People was right, if not careful I could be cheated. Tonight is the revue night, how exciting, lots of pictures and videos for sure. And an interview with vica as my last interviewee, actually not exactly. (Have to interview Jenifer, however she is currently upset by that 15/20.) Well, what can I do, get some more people??? Who to get? Eddie, that's it. But isn't it bit too late? I could if I wanted to. The more people the better isn't it. Wendy, she'll do it. (but she's not seng student). Angely and Siddar... I just need to get the number right. Maybe I should write an email to her.
It's all about quality and speed. Work.
News flash, internet crime, lots of liars around the world. People was right, if not careful I could be cheated. Tonight is the revue night, how exciting, lots of pictures and videos for sure. And an interview with vica as my last interviewee, actually not exactly. (Have to interview Jenifer, however she is currently upset by that 15/20.) Well, what can I do, get some more people??? Who to get? Eddie, that's it. But isn't it bit too late? I could if I wanted to. The more people the better isn't it. Wendy, she'll do it. (but she's not seng student). Angely and Siddar... I just need to get the number right. Maybe I should write an email to her.
It's all about quality and speed. Work.
Wednesday, August 27, 2003
OMG, I have to work tonight. I did already. But it came in a sudden. The interview with Ken is really good. I have to lock the camera and bag in FBE then went to work and I am working again tomorrow night. Um... pretty tired, but absolutely worth it.
Anohter liar. I am becoming much aquainted about those internet thiefs now. For instance, this morning, the guy said he urgently need one, he wants to ship today... I realise later on, those are all those thief's technics to make you ship without receive his payment. Wola wola, lucky I have Liz, we both working together. The point is make sure if the payment is there then ship. Don't do any business in a hurry. Hold on tightly to your own principle. I am growing in this sense absolutely.
Where do I want to go tonight?
Anohter liar. I am becoming much aquainted about those internet thiefs now. For instance, this morning, the guy said he urgently need one, he wants to ship today... I realise later on, those are all those thief's technics to make you ship without receive his payment. Wola wola, lucky I have Liz, we both working together. The point is make sure if the payment is there then ship. Don't do any business in a hurry. Hold on tightly to your own principle. I am growing in this sense absolutely.
Where do I want to go tonight?
In a early morning email to Rinka, I wrote:
I woke up particularly early this morning at 7:28AM by a phone call from Africa. Never mind. (Some business to do there) Well, that's how I got your message early in the morning.
...
...
In the next four / five weeks or so I would be totally engaged with my CSE Revue, a large scale comedy show (showing in School for 9 days in a row). Everynight from now on would be training night. Sat/Sun 10-7pm. (and next Saturday is the HORROR MOVIE SLEEP OVER NIGHT, all 30 performers(cast,include me) would be sleep over in our school of comptuer science and engineering watching horror movies (3 in a row) ... Summary: most nights of the upcoming 4 / 5 weeks will not belong to me but the Revue. But we would eventually have a estimated ticket sale of 3000+ audiences. As one of the 30 cast people, i am really happy to take part in cast, (It'll be on DVD shortly after 5 weeks). I will send you a copy. (it's so rude, but you'll laugh your head off). Where that's what I am doing at the moemnt, that's why I talk about it 24/7 (Q: when do you have time to do your study if you are out every night 4/5 weeks in a row? A: I have 5 1/2 days off. Even nights are occupied, I can still perfectly do my study during the day time of thos 5 1/2 days. (actually not true, as Sat/Sun is gone) make it 3 1/2 days.
My schedules as usual are visible to the world, but so far only two person knows the address
http://calendar.yahoo.com/bche562 (count yourself as one)
Believe or not, Caro and me went on a seperation trial for two weeks. We might be seperated after two weeks. (The relationship is going off for good, possibly, we are not sure yet) (Q: How? A: Explain later when I have the time and mood. In short, not suitable for each other in terms of life time long partner)
...
...
Woof.
I woke up particularly early this morning at 7:28AM by a phone call from Africa. Never mind. (Some business to do there) Well, that's how I got your message early in the morning.
...
...
In the next four / five weeks or so I would be totally engaged with my CSE Revue, a large scale comedy show (showing in School for 9 days in a row). Everynight from now on would be training night. Sat/Sun 10-7pm. (and next Saturday is the HORROR MOVIE SLEEP OVER NIGHT, all 30 performers(cast,include me) would be sleep over in our school of comptuer science and engineering watching horror movies (3 in a row) ... Summary: most nights of the upcoming 4 / 5 weeks will not belong to me but the Revue. But we would eventually have a estimated ticket sale of 3000+ audiences. As one of the 30 cast people, i am really happy to take part in cast, (It'll be on DVD shortly after 5 weeks). I will send you a copy. (it's so rude, but you'll laugh your head off). Where that's what I am doing at the moemnt, that's why I talk about it 24/7 (Q: when do you have time to do your study if you are out every night 4/5 weeks in a row? A: I have 5 1/2 days off. Even nights are occupied, I can still perfectly do my study during the day time of thos 5 1/2 days. (actually not true, as Sat/Sun is gone) make it 3 1/2 days.
My schedules as usual are visible to the world, but so far only two person knows the address
http://calendar.yahoo.com/bche562 (count yourself as one)
Believe or not, Caro and me went on a seperation trial for two weeks. We might be seperated after two weeks. (The relationship is going off for good, possibly, we are not sure yet) (Q: How? A: Explain later when I have the time and mood. In short, not suitable for each other in terms of life time long partner)
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...
Woof.
Tuesday, August 26, 2003
BREAKING NEWS: EVERYONE! Actually only two people knows this address on 25 Aug 2003.
bohan-screenplay.blogspot.com is launched.
bohan-screenplay.blogspot.com is launched.
This week is Week 5, as I speak 25 Aug 2003
So This is the new rehersal schedules:
Week 5: Fri - 6.30pm
Sat - 10am to 7pm (even if you are not in a dance, come in to work
on acting with us)
Sun - 10am to 7pm
Week 6: Mon - 6.00pm to 9pm
Tue - 6.00pm to 9pm
Wed - 6.00pm to 9pm
Fri - 6.00pm to 9pm
Sat - 10am to 7pm (even if you are not in a dance, come in to work
on acting with us)
Sun - 10am to 7pm
Week 7: Mon - 6.00pm to 9pm
Tue - 6.00pm to 9pm
Wed - 6.00pm to 9pm
Fri - 6.00pm to 9pm
Sat - 10am to 7pm (even if you are not in a dance, come in to work
on acting with us)
Sun - 10am to 7pm
Week 8: SHOW TIME!!!
Week 9: SHOW TIME!!!
Um... Copying and Pasting is FUN. As you can see, that's 4 week's night is GONE!
Woof, I consider myself to be extremly lucky have 5 and half days off. Or otherwise I wouldn't be able to cope with my ordinary study life.
My documentary, when can it come out?? Hold on a minutes, that means I can only screen it on Thursday. Should I push myself to make it available on the 4th September? By booking a room. OMG. What a tight schedule. 4 weeks' worth of nights, I guarentee my parents would say something about it. How about compsoc newsletter online. It better be good.
So This is the new rehersal schedules:
Week 5: Fri - 6.30pm
Sat - 10am to 7pm (even if you are not in a dance, come in to work
on acting with us)
Sun - 10am to 7pm
Week 6: Mon - 6.00pm to 9pm
Tue - 6.00pm to 9pm
Wed - 6.00pm to 9pm
Fri - 6.00pm to 9pm
Sat - 10am to 7pm (even if you are not in a dance, come in to work
on acting with us)
Sun - 10am to 7pm
Week 7: Mon - 6.00pm to 9pm
Tue - 6.00pm to 9pm
Wed - 6.00pm to 9pm
Fri - 6.00pm to 9pm
Sat - 10am to 7pm (even if you are not in a dance, come in to work
on acting with us)
Sun - 10am to 7pm
Week 8: SHOW TIME!!!
Week 9: SHOW TIME!!!
Um... Copying and Pasting is FUN. As you can see, that's 4 week's night is GONE!
Woof, I consider myself to be extremly lucky have 5 and half days off. Or otherwise I wouldn't be able to cope with my ordinary study life.
My documentary, when can it come out?? Hold on a minutes, that means I can only screen it on Thursday. Should I push myself to make it available on the 4th September? By booking a room. OMG. What a tight schedule. 4 weeks' worth of nights, I guarentee my parents would say something about it. How about compsoc newsletter online. It better be good.
well, 15/20. That is a distinction, however Jennifer seems not completely happy with that. Woof, we need to work harder to get high distinction. So I guess tonight I have to devote a lot of time on it. Yep.
Mm.. met a interesting girl after interview with Dicky. Invite her over for next week's screening as well. It's the second day for the seperation trial. At this stage I don't know what's going to happen in the end. I know I am going to interview ken wed, sam thursday and vica friday. The wonderful revue on Friday Night.
Talking about revue tonight is the first night of law revue. Yes, talking about girls, a quick guy talk this lunch time. Mark basically said why not pick up, (pick up a new phrase for me) why not pick up in the revue (crew)? Then they say ** is working on beck, then Mark indicate Beck is old @ 22. OMG, 22 is old, how young you guys want, 19 / 18 maybe. Woof woof. It actually ain't bad idea pick up in the revue (crew).
Recently to my surprise, Dicky has a girl friend Debora for 5 months now. I will descibe Debora semi-hot, Dicky not-hot. I am sorry Dicky, you see I don't mean to offend you. That is the thing, if I were given out my photo album link, people will see the link to this blog, however they do really need itnerest to discover and read all few thousands words blog in order to find some particular information.
So back Dicky, score, yes that's what they will say in the revue team. Score. And Harold had lunch with me and Christina(a moderate girl). Just need few hours to get the film all together, of course, first of all need to get the seng straight.
Many things to deal with, I suppose. Esp working hours, Good news is Liz is going to work 12 days in a row. 2000AU. AH... That's sort of hours I needed. Few good shots today.
Mm.. met a interesting girl after interview with Dicky. Invite her over for next week's screening as well. It's the second day for the seperation trial. At this stage I don't know what's going to happen in the end. I know I am going to interview ken wed, sam thursday and vica friday. The wonderful revue on Friday Night.
Talking about revue tonight is the first night of law revue. Yes, talking about girls, a quick guy talk this lunch time. Mark basically said why not pick up, (pick up a new phrase for me) why not pick up in the revue (crew)? Then they say ** is working on beck, then Mark indicate Beck is old @ 22. OMG, 22 is old, how young you guys want, 19 / 18 maybe. Woof woof. It actually ain't bad idea pick up in the revue (crew).
Recently to my surprise, Dicky has a girl friend Debora for 5 months now. I will descibe Debora semi-hot, Dicky not-hot. I am sorry Dicky, you see I don't mean to offend you. That is the thing, if I were given out my photo album link, people will see the link to this blog, however they do really need itnerest to discover and read all few thousands words blog in order to find some particular information.
So back Dicky, score, yes that's what they will say in the revue team. Score. And Harold had lunch with me and Christina(a moderate girl). Just need few hours to get the film all together, of course, first of all need to get the seng straight.
Many things to deal with, I suppose. Esp working hours, Good news is Liz is going to work 12 days in a row. 2000AU. AH... That's sort of hours I needed. Few good shots today.
Here is a transfer. I use to want to archive every single email I received or sent. I STILL WANT TO. However due to the physical limitation, I QUIT. I have select what to store what to throw away. So there you have it. 4MB + 2MB for the rest of session. I increasingly prefer webbased email as you don't need to worry about back up, it just never crash on you, your address book and emails are at safe hand. You can always retrieve them. However they are just SMALL in terms of storage. Whatever.
Monday, August 25, 2003
That's my luck. After talking to Liz for a while found out she is just upset that I do things on her computer without telling her. She is ok with me using her computer just need some respect. As I said to her, in normal condition, computer meant to be personal, allow another person use the computer is something unusual. I appreciate that her effort in letting me use the fast computer to tide over some difficult period. So after 10 min conversation it is all cool. I back where I am, just no more emails on Outlook Express (reduce risk of virus). Virus is truly bad stuff. It destroys all the efforts. I need to install Fire wall tomorrow. Time.
Anything can't be excess, I shouldn't consider Liz's machine as my own. Overall it is not. However not to use it cause great grief as I lost a very efficient tool of what I am doing. I am desperate. Ah... It is one of those things ... basically I expressed the idea that I am sorry and that I appreciate that Liz let me use her machine. But I really don't have to resource to buy myself a decent work station. It seems I really need one urgently. Maybe I should buy off Caroline's old HP. I don't know what should I do. However for my film, website and photos, this machine is essential. I'm feeling sorry.
Yesterday the wind is hilarious. 100KM/Hour. Killed 1 in Sydney. Laurie me and Lizzie went down La Perouse, woof, you won't believe it. It's just huge I fall down.
Then Caroline came, in the end she agreed with a seperation trial. i hope it'll be a win win situation. Who knows what will happen in two weeks time.
Find out the lecture this afternoon is cancelled which will give me time to read the 8 pages blah.
Reading about the my Pine, found out some really old email. Good stuff. Paste here. (The magic of old letters)
From: "Bohan Chen"
To: "'Rinka Guo'"
Subject: 2001 SESSION ONE
Date: Sun, 8 Jul 2001 21:58:44 +1000
Dear Rinka,
Here goes my first session first year. It was hard. Harder than I
thought.
I survived with my two maths: Higher Maths 1A & Discrete Maths. I GOT
TWO CREDITs FOR THEM. OH< YEAH.
However, besides that I got two passes for my another two subjects which
are Higher Computing 1A(the most exciting subject) & Business Database
Management (the most boring subject). Thank God, I survived first
session. I will study much harder next session to secure my double
degree. (Since school requires double degree student achieves a weighted
average of the first three years' score above Credit Line which is 65%).
Fail one subject will cost you precious half year time and around 800
pounds. No one can afford it.
I felt quite stressful sometimes, especially when assignment is due on
Sunday, but you still need to work on Saturday. I am very content with
my job. As you know, the caf� is close to my house(very close), and
every week I always work on the same day for same amount of hours. It is
just stable. I am planning to buy a CASIO electronic piano due to the
fact that I am becoming more and more enthusiastic about piano, about
BACH, about classic music. 200 Pounds will easily give you a powerful &
versatile electronic piano with sensitive touching (if you press softly,
the sound is soft. If you press hard, the sound is louder). Why not buy
one for yourself, I believe that playing piano is 100 times better than
check email four times a day. Rinka, Rinka, don't you love Music? Come
on, give it try. Inspire yourself again. Just imagine when you are
depressed by the pressure around you, when you feel alone, when it is
keep on raining. Close all your windows, (OH NO, you are in Summer, I
almost forget), OPEN all your windows, Plug in your piano, Piano
Concerto No.5 E Major, BACH will make you as peaceful as sheep, as
dynamic as Lara Croft. (TRULY, every night before Lara Croft went to be,
she does Benji Jumping accompanying with BACH, Piano concerto in F
Minor, if you watched the movie you'll know).
There is one thing that I like about Sydney is its weather. We are
suppose to be Winter now. However, I cannot find any feeling of winter
at all. Sydney's winter is always like autumn. That's amazing, isn't it.
This time in Canberra is really freezing. How's London?
Finally I am in holiday, but I am not that happy and relaxed as I
expected. I am disappointed with it. I want to purchase a powerful
Cambridge PC speakers. At around 50 pounds, I still need to think about
it.
I need to work again Saturday. I don't want to work. (maybe I am still a
boy)
Bye for now. Are you in Holiday? Maybe not. Perform well for your
studies.
"Too many cosmetics will increase the number of pimples. "
-- Bohan Chen, Software Engineer
Your sincerely
Bohan Chen
---------------------------------------------------------------------
School of Computer Science & Engineering
University of New South Wales
Sydney, Australia
-To fear the worst oft cures the worse.
---------------------------------------------------------------------
Then Caroline came, in the end she agreed with a seperation trial. i hope it'll be a win win situation. Who knows what will happen in two weeks time.
Find out the lecture this afternoon is cancelled which will give me time to read the 8 pages blah.
Reading about the my Pine, found out some really old email. Good stuff. Paste here. (The magic of old letters)
From: "Bohan Chen"
To: "'Rinka Guo'"
Subject: 2001 SESSION ONE
Date: Sun, 8 Jul 2001 21:58:44 +1000
Dear Rinka,
Here goes my first session first year. It was hard. Harder than I
thought.
I survived with my two maths: Higher Maths 1A & Discrete Maths. I GOT
TWO CREDITs FOR THEM. OH< YEAH.
However, besides that I got two passes for my another two subjects which
are Higher Computing 1A(the most exciting subject) & Business Database
Management (the most boring subject). Thank God, I survived first
session. I will study much harder next session to secure my double
degree. (Since school requires double degree student achieves a weighted
average of the first three years' score above Credit Line which is 65%).
Fail one subject will cost you precious half year time and around 800
pounds. No one can afford it.
I felt quite stressful sometimes, especially when assignment is due on
Sunday, but you still need to work on Saturday. I am very content with
my job. As you know, the caf� is close to my house(very close), and
every week I always work on the same day for same amount of hours. It is
just stable. I am planning to buy a CASIO electronic piano due to the
fact that I am becoming more and more enthusiastic about piano, about
BACH, about classic music. 200 Pounds will easily give you a powerful &
versatile electronic piano with sensitive touching (if you press softly,
the sound is soft. If you press hard, the sound is louder). Why not buy
one for yourself, I believe that playing piano is 100 times better than
check email four times a day. Rinka, Rinka, don't you love Music? Come
on, give it try. Inspire yourself again. Just imagine when you are
depressed by the pressure around you, when you feel alone, when it is
keep on raining. Close all your windows, (OH NO, you are in Summer, I
almost forget), OPEN all your windows, Plug in your piano, Piano
Concerto No.5 E Major, BACH will make you as peaceful as sheep, as
dynamic as Lara Croft. (TRULY, every night before Lara Croft went to be,
she does Benji Jumping accompanying with BACH, Piano concerto in F
Minor, if you watched the movie you'll know).
There is one thing that I like about Sydney is its weather. We are
suppose to be Winter now. However, I cannot find any feeling of winter
at all. Sydney's winter is always like autumn. That's amazing, isn't it.
This time in Canberra is really freezing. How's London?
Finally I am in holiday, but I am not that happy and relaxed as I
expected. I am disappointed with it. I want to purchase a powerful
Cambridge PC speakers. At around 50 pounds, I still need to think about
it.
I need to work again Saturday. I don't want to work. (maybe I am still a
boy)
Bye for now. Are you in Holiday? Maybe not. Perform well for your
studies.
"Too many cosmetics will increase the number of pimples. "
-- Bohan Chen, Software Engineer
Your sincerely
Bohan Chen
---------------------------------------------------------------------
School of Computer Science & Engineering
University of New South Wales
Sydney, Australia
-To fear the worst oft cures the worse.
---------------------------------------------------------------------
Saturday, August 23, 2003
Doesn't have dinner on time does give me a long hard time till 12am (stomache).
Glad that cable come back to life at the cost of 30AU. I hope the anti-virus doesn't scan apple again. Once tonight sometime I was deeply hope tomorrow I don't have to go to cast, so I can accompany Caro to the movie, overall we haven't went out like this for a while. I am certainly looking forward to it.
Laurie gave me some new film, it was nice of him. I think I will take good use of it tomorrow. (maybe). Hanson is my new group member. In one email I wrote to him today I said you are the only person who shot my pictures than I did in the last one and half years. 5000 pictures. Pretty impressive. However, I don't think anyone will look through all his pictures since the server is damn slow and the way the picture is presented is poor. Sorry Hanson, but I have to point out your photo album will receive low marks in heuristic evaluation conducted by COMP3511 Human Computer Interaction. Wake up early.
Glad that cable come back to life at the cost of 30AU. I hope the anti-virus doesn't scan apple again. Once tonight sometime I was deeply hope tomorrow I don't have to go to cast, so I can accompany Caro to the movie, overall we haven't went out like this for a while. I am certainly looking forward to it.
Laurie gave me some new film, it was nice of him. I think I will take good use of it tomorrow. (maybe). Hanson is my new group member. In one email I wrote to him today I said you are the only person who shot my pictures than I did in the last one and half years. 5000 pictures. Pretty impressive. However, I don't think anyone will look through all his pictures since the server is damn slow and the way the picture is presented is poor. Sorry Hanson, but I have to point out your photo album will receive low marks in heuristic evaluation conducted by COMP3511 Human Computer Interaction. Wake up early.
Friday, August 22, 2003
Very sleepy. However 2 things need to tell. + Fotki.com member ship now starting, it will end 21 Aug 2004. What a good news. Unlimited Photosharing for a year.
- The stupid thing is that this months quota is gone approx 900MB has been used by anti-virus scanning apple.com, how stupid is that. it's my fault, i didn't specifiy clearly enough which drive to scan. It just scanned everything.
28K Dial-up is painful, and we have to live with it for the next 9 days. Wu..
- The stupid thing is that this months quota is gone approx 900MB has been used by anti-virus scanning apple.com, how stupid is that. it's my fault, i didn't specifiy clearly enough which drive to scan. It just scanned everything.
28K Dial-up is painful, and we have to live with it for the next 9 days. Wu..
Wednesday, August 20, 2003
The emails are back which is a good news, takes painful 2 hours in the shop though + 30AU.
We got a new microwave after we burned our old one few days ago. I formed a group with a 4th year for HCI, it'll be good. Tomorrow assignment due. Need to focus tonight.
We got a new microwave after we burned our old one few days ago. I formed a group with a 4th year for HCI, it'll be good. Tomorrow assignment due. Need to focus tonight.
Tuesday, August 19, 2003
Going to Microsoft Headquarter tonight is sort of mistaken. The expeiriences, DON'T DRINK ALCOHOL WHEN YOU ARE THIRSTY, it's just the worst thing you can do. Well, they sure have a lots of Xbox games. The demostration of Xbox live truly impressive with live talk with the players in the states. In addition, Moreover, we met hot chick in the office, Caroline, graduated in INFS from a university not even heard of in IT, some Catholic University. I really think that her pretty face helped a lot in getting into Microsoft. Maybe I am jealous, since I am not belonging to the 'beautiful people'.
Back to the focus, I got a headache by drinking alchohol when I am thirsty, and by playing lots of video games after that. The headache only goes away few minutes ago. SECOND, most importantly, I lost my tripod there. Looking positively, I can buy a new one soon. Which I wanted to do for ages.
Today's interview went well, however I doubt I can finish the assignment tonight, I will try certainly. The new mouse worked well after some tuning. It's a beauty. I am not sure why the computer doesn't shut down properly. So long as it works. I am eagerly waiting for the next updates.
Back to the focus, I got a headache by drinking alchohol when I am thirsty, and by playing lots of video games after that. The headache only goes away few minutes ago. SECOND, most importantly, I lost my tripod there. Looking positively, I can buy a new one soon. Which I wanted to do for ages.
Today's interview went well, however I doubt I can finish the assignment tonight, I will try certainly. The new mouse worked well after some tuning. It's a beauty. I am not sure why the computer doesn't shut down properly. So long as it works. I am eagerly waiting for the next updates.
I don't feel as bad as yesterday, I began to forget about the happy parts. What ignites me to start this is from Ctrl + Tab. We all know when you want to swtich window from IE point of view you use Alt + Tab, since each webpage is a seperate window. However Opera took differnt approach, everything within application, called Tab. Then swtich between tab is definelty now Alt + Tab. Then, sometimes I am use to IE, so I do Alt + Tab, that switch me off the application completely.
1 minutse ago I was have a conversation with myself, wouldn't it nice, if I can swtich pages within opera as easy as Alt + Tab. Something like Ctrl + Tab will do. Then I tried. And it worked. I feel so amazed. Only one conclusion, great minds think alike. ^.^ hehe.
Had a brief Harold last night about his super-sensitivity about marks. Even at university level, Harold cares mark as much as in high school. So I bascially told him, we aim differntly. We'll see.
The password and username bring Martin to me for the first deal, which isn't bad, I am certainly expect more. As for tonight, go to Microsoft Headquarters is a exciting thing to attend, my only worries are my HCI assignment and emails to ken still not finished yet. Better stop now and go back to work.
1 minutse ago I was have a conversation with myself, wouldn't it nice, if I can swtich pages within opera as easy as Alt + Tab. Something like Ctrl + Tab will do. Then I tried. And it worked. I feel so amazed. Only one conclusion, great minds think alike. ^.^ hehe.
Had a brief Harold last night about his super-sensitivity about marks. Even at university level, Harold cares mark as much as in high school. So I bascially told him, we aim differntly. We'll see.
The password and username bring Martin to me for the first deal, which isn't bad, I am certainly expect more. As for tonight, go to Microsoft Headquarters is a exciting thing to attend, my only worries are my HCI assignment and emails to ken still not finished yet. Better stop now and go back to work.
Monday, August 18, 2003
Wow, waking up to be notified, YOU WILL BE SUED. Dr Josh again threatens to sue me. What a nasty person indeed. Now I seriously need to consider whether worth my effort on this bastard. It'll be completely waste of my energy only get myself concerned what he'll do. I will win the cse, if there ever to be such law suit. Now I sort of understand eminim. Call your lawyer, fire me a lawsuit. Ok, ok. he is just like Grace, never acknowledge... what can I say, not civilised. Back to the lawsuite, if he did fire one, it'll be civil and I will win. But the effort and harrasment caused by this is really not worth my effort. It's all about choices.
My choice to wait for him to pay. My choice to leave negative feedback. If really everything is done. The choice is already made, all I have to do is to understand it. I can't.
I can't understand the choice i made 5 weeks ago. I should state firmly if payment not finalised within 3 days, the deal is off. That's a wrong choice, a wrong turn. I can not understand it. Hence the matrix theory doesn't apply here. I think I will have a whole lot of bad incidents happening to me before the age 22. Yes 22 years old.
In another word, i am not happy in my current situation. And humans are emotional animals. 2900AU and threatings of a lawsuit. I wonder what's next. A breakup?
My choice to wait for him to pay. My choice to leave negative feedback. If really everything is done. The choice is already made, all I have to do is to understand it. I can't.
I can't understand the choice i made 5 weeks ago. I should state firmly if payment not finalised within 3 days, the deal is off. That's a wrong choice, a wrong turn. I can not understand it. Hence the matrix theory doesn't apply here. I think I will have a whole lot of bad incidents happening to me before the age 22. Yes 22 years old.
In another word, i am not happy in my current situation. And humans are emotional animals. 2900AU and threatings of a lawsuit. I wonder what's next. A breakup?
Evil talk time: well, just sent some invitations for next week's interview schedules. and I allow them to choose either to take a Video Interview / Paper Interivew.
You see some people would be shy to take on Video, however if I manage them on it, regardless, they will buy a copy in the end. The purpose of taking pictures of everyone is for the ending credits part to thank them participating in the project. However, I didn't reveal that it is also a double sided sword.
Thinking about the year book for your high school. Even though your head only appears a tiny bit on the year book, even only once, you would spend 12 dollars on a book you don't read for the rest of your life. Imgine now you have a properly taken picture on a properly made movie for just 3 dollars. You would much more likely to buy a copy if you see your picture in it. I have to say it is a marketing strategy. Hence I have to make sure to squeeze as much as people in the video as well. That's why I call it evil talk. Really much all those issue sits on back of the brain Level 3. Normally speaking people don't think below level 2. If you ask what do I mean by level 3 or level 2. I just made it up, so you don't have to worry about them.
I think I am evil, but also I want to ensure success in terms of copy distribution. 3 dollars each isn't much. I got myself 4 orders, from Jerry and Fred and William. Oh, now that'll be 6 copies already. Guess what Aim will want it too. So there are estimated 8 copies on order.
I need to sell 20 to make any sense here. 60 dollars of revenue. It is a good record for documentary films. Oh, yes, Brett and Cate, that'll be another 2 orders minimum.
So 10 copies looking good. Need to secure 10 other copies. Sharon, yes, another one or two.
The possibliyt is endless.
TARGET AUDIENCE: I am asking myself many times during the procedure, who am I bloggeing to. Me Myself or the general public. When I write something do I imagine I am writing an essay or host a talk show. By the way, I will be presenter pretty soon in the show you are all waiting for CSE Revue 2003. Enough is enough. I love bloggering. It is fun and easy.
You see some people would be shy to take on Video, however if I manage them on it, regardless, they will buy a copy in the end. The purpose of taking pictures of everyone is for the ending credits part to thank them participating in the project. However, I didn't reveal that it is also a double sided sword.
Thinking about the year book for your high school. Even though your head only appears a tiny bit on the year book, even only once, you would spend 12 dollars on a book you don't read for the rest of your life. Imgine now you have a properly taken picture on a properly made movie for just 3 dollars. You would much more likely to buy a copy if you see your picture in it. I have to say it is a marketing strategy. Hence I have to make sure to squeeze as much as people in the video as well. That's why I call it evil talk. Really much all those issue sits on back of the brain Level 3. Normally speaking people don't think below level 2. If you ask what do I mean by level 3 or level 2. I just made it up, so you don't have to worry about them.
I think I am evil, but also I want to ensure success in terms of copy distribution. 3 dollars each isn't much. I got myself 4 orders, from Jerry and Fred and William. Oh, now that'll be 6 copies already. Guess what Aim will want it too. So there are estimated 8 copies on order.
I need to sell 20 to make any sense here. 60 dollars of revenue. It is a good record for documentary films. Oh, yes, Brett and Cate, that'll be another 2 orders minimum.
So 10 copies looking good. Need to secure 10 other copies. Sharon, yes, another one or two.
The possibliyt is endless.
TARGET AUDIENCE: I am asking myself many times during the procedure, who am I bloggeing to. Me Myself or the general public. When I write something do I imagine I am writing an essay or host a talk show. By the way, I will be presenter pretty soon in the show you are all waiting for CSE Revue 2003. Enough is enough. I love bloggering. It is fun and easy.
Sunday, August 17, 2003
Talking about bad bad day. I found it's very hard to dealing with ...
DR JOSH. He wants to sue me if I leave a negative feedback on his ebay account. It's so funny as he said you are threaten me. In reality that's himself. I have only one word for him, a complete ASSHOLE! You see normally I am not a rude person at all. But this time, this guy is really an ASSHOLE, that I don't even bother go into details to describe it. (Since it'll be completely waste of my time) But trust me, I am going to leave a negative feedback after I consult with Liz and Ebay. I would that's what he deserves. Why bother.
Just tons of anger reside in my heart. Well, the revue training goes well, flawlessly, I just need to know my lines, better. I need to finish my first assignment on time. Many things I want to talk to myself, seemingly lack of time and lots of incidents. Give me a break, let me finish my job.
DR JOSH. He wants to sue me if I leave a negative feedback on his ebay account. It's so funny as he said you are threaten me. In reality that's himself. I have only one word for him, a complete ASSHOLE! You see normally I am not a rude person at all. But this time, this guy is really an ASSHOLE, that I don't even bother go into details to describe it. (Since it'll be completely waste of my time) But trust me, I am going to leave a negative feedback after I consult with Liz and Ebay. I would that's what he deserves. Why bother.
Just tons of anger reside in my heart. Well, the revue training goes well, flawlessly, I just need to know my lines, better. I need to finish my first assignment on time. Many things I want to talk to myself, seemingly lack of time and lots of incidents. Give me a break, let me finish my job.
Bedroom becomes a place only to sleep. My interest shift heavily on Compaq Evo these days. I am not sure if it's good or not. I am live in a very werid situation. I don't know what is happening. I am turning 22 soon, am I?
HORRIBLE DREAM REVEALED: well, before I go into any details. Here is Caroline bugging me again on MSN. It is a loop. One after another, makes me very hard to concentrate on what I am doing. Very hard to concentrate indeed. Actually the converst..
The conversation is about some personal issues.
I have so many things happening in the last 24 hours. I want to talk about the dream, only if I write it down I can depict it perfect. However I can't do it due to the conversation I just had, it makes me not in the mood describing anything. I like Fotki.com, but again I have no feeling.
It is a year of choice, or change, maybe Yyevvet was right, I need it. At stage, saying anything would be too early. The bad loop I don't want to get into again. I need have a quick hand on the block hand and the telephone set.
Yet again, issues, issues. Why? I have question mark in my head as well. It's like harde than the math problems. It's like a myth. It's like destinty that I might be able to change with my mere hands.
Days went by fast, tomorrow another full day training, what should reside in my mind. A directionless term. I need a way out soon.
The conversation is about some personal issues.
I have so many things happening in the last 24 hours. I want to talk about the dream, only if I write it down I can depict it perfect. However I can't do it due to the conversation I just had, it makes me not in the mood describing anything. I like Fotki.com, but again I have no feeling.
It is a year of choice, or change, maybe Yyevvet was right, I need it. At stage, saying anything would be too early. The bad loop I don't want to get into again. I need have a quick hand on the block hand and the telephone set.
Yet again, issues, issues. Why? I have question mark in my head as well. It's like harde than the math problems. It's like a myth. It's like destinty that I might be able to change with my mere hands.
Days went by fast, tomorrow another full day training, what should reside in my mind. A directionless term. I need a way out soon.
Friday, August 15, 2003
I am drunk. 3 bottles only, still drunk. I am typing. I can't go to bed now, otherwise I will puke. I havne't drank for so long. And damn VB is strong. Hehe. It might be my first time typing while drunk, haha. Go Revue.
I want to kiss everyone.
I want to kiss everyone.
Wednesday, August 13, 2003
I was looking at a black cat on Friday I think. 24 hours after I paid 2900AU to the bad guy.
It is nice to see the white cat tonight on my way home. She/he snuggled towards me. Yes SNUGGLE. I love to use that word. It was very hot compare to few days ago of Sydney's Weather. I was sweating while walking around in CBD. The POWERHOUSE MUSEUM is really great. I throughly enjoyed it. Taken lots of videos and images. It's really eye-pleasing site.
Then I rush to School, pipe 16:00, Wiliam is not there! Well, I try to calm myself down. 44 minutes later he came, we had a long interview. It was all good then.
Now I am trying to download the video and really get into the shower ==> later script writing. Has to get started on Ken's question too.
It is nice to see the white cat tonight on my way home. She/he snuggled towards me. Yes SNUGGLE. I love to use that word. It was very hot compare to few days ago of Sydney's Weather. I was sweating while walking around in CBD. The POWERHOUSE MUSEUM is really great. I throughly enjoyed it. Taken lots of videos and images. It's really eye-pleasing site.
Then I rush to School, pipe 16:00, Wiliam is not there! Well, I try to calm myself down. 44 minutes later he came, we had a long interview. It was all good then.
Now I am trying to download the video and really get into the shower ==> later script writing. Has to get started on Ken's question too.
Tuesday, August 12, 2003
Can't miss out interesting events. Today our Microwave is on fire. Well, it goes to cook on brown ice for 30 min non-stop. When we open the door, fire comes on. And smoke is anywhere. That makes sense doesn't it.
Now I understand, why people choke to death in a fire instead of burn to death. Because of the smoke caused by the fire is really choking. Even a little bit can make you dizzy I suppose. Anyway we carried the mircowave outside.
Computer wise, new virus attack, we have to restart the new machine and blah. JJ's computer seems not working well at the same time. I suggest her buy a new burner and anti-virus software. She is having interview with Coles Myres this Friday. Wish her good luck. I am confident she will get it.
Tomorrow Morning, I am going with Caro to a Museam for a Assignment of Human Computer Interaction. That'll be good.
Now I understand, why people choke to death in a fire instead of burn to death. Because of the smoke caused by the fire is really choking. Even a little bit can make you dizzy I suppose. Anyway we carried the mircowave outside.
Computer wise, new virus attack, we have to restart the new machine and blah. JJ's computer seems not working well at the same time. I suggest her buy a new burner and anti-virus software. She is having interview with Coles Myres this Friday. Wish her good luck. I am confident she will get it.
Tomorrow Morning, I am going with Caro to a Museam for a Assignment of Human Computer Interaction. That'll be good.
Sunday, August 10, 2003
I am thinking about the title: Expression at tthe age 21. Soon enough I am going to turn 22. What a scary truth. I always think I am 21, and soon I am going to turn 22. That's really sad. Anyway, I went to the Big W again on Saturday and the to my rage, the management didn';t put me on the roster when I needed it the most. And there is a new department manager called Rod kindly record down my details and determined to look into it. Hopefully it is the care. NEvertheless, there is a nice lady ask me to work on Tuesday Night 5-8, 45 dollars, not bad. I will go. I crave money so much now. Even if I do that to make lack of 2900 is still a very vrey hard job as a full time student. Seng really went smooth, everyone seem have their speciliaty, Aldo is good at using latex producing pdfs. Richard is the the java genius. I am the design boy. Heha. That wasn't bad at all. I feel quite comfortable at this stage. I swore to work harder in the furture as they did. A distinction again for SENG. Yes. About HCI, I am not sure when am I going to visit the Museam, maybe during Tuesday Day Time then go home after 3. Have a short rest go to work. That'll make TUesday fully packed. Why not? I will certainly try that. Hold on, what about the tutorials allocations then. I need to work it out soon. So I have nothing on Wednesday. Better go on Wedesday Morning.
If any one ask me where did I found this. I will say thanks to SMH, sydney morning harold's ICON, which is a tech newspaper I read every Saturday. It keeps on surprising me. It really did. I really enjoying bloggering now. Largely due to its convinience and I don't have to worry about backup. It will not crash. Having this in mind is so cool.
There are millions people I know don't have such habbit of backing up stuff. Yet again, every year they reinstall their system. So where did their documetns go. ALL GONE. and indeed, backup is as hard as you could imagine if you never have a plan. And currently there are lots of good backup softwares, however all requires efforts to learn. Even hard disk loading (imaging) is not easy enough. I really realy want to write another page about the Backup Myth. Yes, that's true. The backup myth page.
By the way, I met Walid, my working colluges Satursday, he likes my Mega Pixel Myth page as well. It is great idea. wait till you see the movie site. It takes time, last night I worked till 12. For some reasons I just hate... even 1 pixel difference in the navigation bar can cause me grief. Design = I need to call Martin up. Tonight.
Rehearsal, damn, I want to read more books. My written English will face its biggest challenge ever, the screen play. Without Liz, my script will be dead. Coincidentatly Liz is passionate about vocal talent role. I really print out. Shall I list tablet on Ebay again. A good thing is Caroline starts copying now. A good sign. yes, it worked. That is, last night sending to 11 people did work. YES. ^.^ NEVER EVER FAIL.
If any one ask me where did I found this. I will say thanks to SMH, sydney morning harold's ICON, which is a tech newspaper I read every Saturday. It keeps on surprising me. It really did. I really enjoying bloggering now. Largely due to its convinience and I don't have to worry about backup. It will not crash. Having this in mind is so cool.
There are millions people I know don't have such habbit of backing up stuff. Yet again, every year they reinstall their system. So where did their documetns go. ALL GONE. and indeed, backup is as hard as you could imagine if you never have a plan. And currently there are lots of good backup softwares, however all requires efforts to learn. Even hard disk loading (imaging) is not easy enough. I really realy want to write another page about the Backup Myth. Yes, that's true. The backup myth page.
By the way, I met Walid, my working colluges Satursday, he likes my Mega Pixel Myth page as well. It is great idea. wait till you see the movie site. It takes time, last night I worked till 12. For some reasons I just hate... even 1 pixel difference in the navigation bar can cause me grief. Design = I need to call Martin up. Tonight.
Rehearsal, damn, I want to read more books. My written English will face its biggest challenge ever, the screen play. Without Liz, my script will be dead. Coincidentatly Liz is passionate about vocal talent role. I really print out. Shall I list tablet on Ebay again. A good thing is Caroline starts copying now. A good sign. yes, it worked. That is, last night sending to 11 people did work. YES. ^.^ NEVER EVER FAIL.
Saturday, August 09, 2003
Another busy day. Tomorrow I am fully packed. Today during the break I thought for a long while about the whole permernant resident scheme. I have been doing a lot of SENG work tonight. I still need to work on my own movie site. I found time isn't that ample this sememster. And I hardly feel any study going on, yet again the time always gone so soon.
I need do something quick. I don't know what it is. Isn't that strange.
I need do something quick. I don't know what it is. Isn't that strange.
Friday, August 08, 2003
The WHOLE WORLD IS AGAINST ME! That's exactly what I felt now esp after phone calls to my mum about my financial situation. It just happened all the bad things come together. I thought I was in a sweet position just a month ago. Now I am in a very awkward situation, let me tell myself what went wrong:
1. 2900AU missing
2. 15000AU required at the end of the year which is hard
3. Dr.Josh is not paying
4. Big W doesn't give me regular shift
5. Not sure if I can make industrial training possible.
6. My girl friend does not support me, are not capable support herself.
How much worse can things go. Maybe I should confort myself, "You are still young and healthy, you can do anything." The key question is money and status, esp after listen to Microsoft's speech. We take the top to the states. Oh, yes. It's really a mixed feeling here. That's the direction everyone is pulling. I should write a book about the complex issue pull and push. Damn. Damn. I didn't touch much study materials. I don't know what has happened. Really, it's all mixed up now. Do I have to calculate again. OH NO. It's just too hard. Oh, God how can I tell my parents under this kind of situation. How, tell me how? I just can't tell.
Well, that is painful as well, don't you think. Really it's like a 360 degree turn starts with the afternoon I sent money out. Can I still remain cool? I think I should sleep early tonight for a busy day tomorrow. What shall I do tomorrow afternoon. Maybe 2 HD will be able to save me. It will help certainly. Try some of it then.
1. 2900AU missing
2. 15000AU required at the end of the year which is hard
3. Dr.Josh is not paying
4. Big W doesn't give me regular shift
5. Not sure if I can make industrial training possible.
6. My girl friend does not support me, are not capable support herself.
How much worse can things go. Maybe I should confort myself, "You are still young and healthy, you can do anything." The key question is money and status, esp after listen to Microsoft's speech. We take the top to the states. Oh, yes. It's really a mixed feeling here. That's the direction everyone is pulling. I should write a book about the complex issue pull and push. Damn. Damn. I didn't touch much study materials. I don't know what has happened. Really, it's all mixed up now. Do I have to calculate again. OH NO. It's just too hard. Oh, God how can I tell my parents under this kind of situation. How, tell me how? I just can't tell.
Well, that is painful as well, don't you think. Really it's like a 360 degree turn starts with the afternoon I sent money out. Can I still remain cool? I think I should sleep early tonight for a busy day tomorrow. What shall I do tomorrow afternoon. Maybe 2 HD will be able to save me. It will help certainly. Try some of it then.
I just lied to my Grandpa in one email stating I am in a fine mood. What kind of fine mood is it. A very bad mood. But I can't tell my grandpa who lives a thousand miles away. Grandpa, I have really really a bad mood, my girl firends doens't love me. What shall I do? Nope. Not going to do that. My parents won't belive it either that Caroline doesn't really love me.sdflkjdslkkjlldlkj;adsfkljflas;kdjfl;kasjdfl;kajsd;lfkjas;ldfja;ldkfjl;aksdjf;alskjdf;lksadjf;laksjdf;lajsdf;lkjsdl;fkjasd;lfkjas;dlfjas;ldfjas;ldfj- that describe my feeling very well.
Oh, my my my. What a strange day. Recently strange things happen to me quite often. I was in absolute shock and awkward postion few hours back.
So the story goes: (in case I forgot later) Cici is my friend (female), who is leaving Australia tomorrow (for a long time at least) and wish to spend some time with me today as well as take some pictures together.
Caroline needs to talk to me, I said I need to go to see Cici, since if I don't go today, I will not be able to see her in a year or two or more. Caroline says I shouldn't go because she needs to talk to me. But I still went. She called me ten times during the first 5 minutes I met Cici and her friend Jennet.
ACT I: For a long time I wasn't acting stupidly. Today I did, because caroline keep on ringing on my pocket, I wasn't even listen to what Cici said. Makes me very very slow in understand some very basic conversation. "Are you all right, Bohan".."What happened to you, Bohan, are you ok?"... Then that annoying mobile being switched off by me. Then Caroline called Cici. Say want to talk to me. Then she goes she watns to talk to me for 20 minutes, I said I am not going with Cici to city, that means I will be back in 1 hour time. We can talk then. Caroline obviously has the intention to destroy Cici's last day in Sydney. She said no she wants it now. With Cici standing 3m away completely bewildered what has happened. I hang up the phoen again. Shortly after the phone (Yes, Cici's phoen rang again. Caroline called on Cici's mobile again wants to talk to me.) I said it's uncool to call on other people's mobie. She surely doesn't give a damn. Then ACT II:
"Cici, I think you should turn off your mobile for a while". That's the most awkward moment of the year. Caroline demonstrates her extreme selfishness and evilness to me today. She completely doesn't care about other people.
Bettter yet, after she's done all this, few hours later. She said " I should forgive her " (straight away) since it's no big deal. What I trying to say that moement is, your moral standard is low. Normally you go to donate your blood, consider other people... but whenver you are not happy, you can destroy other people's life without sorrow. What can I say, the heart is just not admiring. She doesn't have admiring qualities. At one moement, she is 100% bitchy. I am so angry. Plus, she keep on asking to break up with me. over and over and over. Should I? One thing I know that is don't make decision when you are hot headed.
However, increasingly evidence, include her own confession that she doesn't love me. She stick with me is because she doesn't have other close friend, and in this situation she needs someone close that's all. What a JOKE!. It's really a sad story to tell. A 100% immature gf doesn't love myself for so long.
I don't know what's going to happen nor do I have the ability to have a peep at the future.(near). I am in pain, anger (more like it). What shall I do, 2900AU loss + a crazy gf going even crazier. I think I need to go to the doctors ask for professional help. However my film has to come out, my revue has to be performed live. I still have to get 2 Distinctions, 2 Credits. I still need to ... Now I undertsand Tiger Woods perfectly.
What's to do with Tiger Woods? The news often said, the unsteady relationship Tiger had previously has large affect his perfromance in the TGP tourment. It could very well be the case. Too bad, we only live once.
So the story goes: (in case I forgot later) Cici is my friend (female), who is leaving Australia tomorrow (for a long time at least) and wish to spend some time with me today as well as take some pictures together.
Caroline needs to talk to me, I said I need to go to see Cici, since if I don't go today, I will not be able to see her in a year or two or more. Caroline says I shouldn't go because she needs to talk to me. But I still went. She called me ten times during the first 5 minutes I met Cici and her friend Jennet.
ACT I: For a long time I wasn't acting stupidly. Today I did, because caroline keep on ringing on my pocket, I wasn't even listen to what Cici said. Makes me very very slow in understand some very basic conversation. "Are you all right, Bohan".."What happened to you, Bohan, are you ok?"... Then that annoying mobile being switched off by me. Then Caroline called Cici. Say want to talk to me. Then she goes she watns to talk to me for 20 minutes, I said I am not going with Cici to city, that means I will be back in 1 hour time. We can talk then. Caroline obviously has the intention to destroy Cici's last day in Sydney. She said no she wants it now. With Cici standing 3m away completely bewildered what has happened. I hang up the phoen again. Shortly after the phone (Yes, Cici's phoen rang again. Caroline called on Cici's mobile again wants to talk to me.) I said it's uncool to call on other people's mobie. She surely doesn't give a damn. Then ACT II:
"Cici, I think you should turn off your mobile for a while". That's the most awkward moment of the year. Caroline demonstrates her extreme selfishness and evilness to me today. She completely doesn't care about other people.
Bettter yet, after she's done all this, few hours later. She said " I should forgive her " (straight away) since it's no big deal. What I trying to say that moement is, your moral standard is low. Normally you go to donate your blood, consider other people... but whenver you are not happy, you can destroy other people's life without sorrow. What can I say, the heart is just not admiring. She doesn't have admiring qualities. At one moement, she is 100% bitchy. I am so angry. Plus, she keep on asking to break up with me. over and over and over. Should I? One thing I know that is don't make decision when you are hot headed.
However, increasingly evidence, include her own confession that she doesn't love me. She stick with me is because she doesn't have other close friend, and in this situation she needs someone close that's all. What a JOKE!. It's really a sad story to tell. A 100% immature gf doesn't love myself for so long.
I don't know what's going to happen nor do I have the ability to have a peep at the future.(near). I am in pain, anger (more like it). What shall I do, 2900AU loss + a crazy gf going even crazier. I think I need to go to the doctors ask for professional help. However my film has to come out, my revue has to be performed live. I still have to get 2 Distinctions, 2 Credits. I still need to ... Now I undertsand Tiger Woods perfectly.
What's to do with Tiger Woods? The news often said, the unsteady relationship Tiger had previously has large affect his perfromance in the TGP tourment. It could very well be the case. Too bad, we only live once.
Thursday, August 07, 2003
Entirely a loop. I am personally suffering from it over and over again. It is utterly unreasonable. That's what I feel when dealing with Caro. Repeated unreasonings and extreme childishness.
Down to the bottom is not able to carry the responsibility as an adult. I need find some professional help. Go into one of those places. One questions presented, if one party keep on being unreasonable, should you spend time fix it, or like it less.
Down to the bottom is not able to carry the responsibility as an adult. I need find some professional help. Go into one of those places. One questions presented, if one party keep on being unreasonable, should you spend time fix it, or like it less.
Another rgument. You can never use logic with girls. They don't think. (Seems a statement will annoys a lot of people). Anyway, tonight I told Guo Shu Qiao (Jill, Juliana) that I liked her for 15 years now. and it goes ... for no particular reason I did it. And I told her now we are adults we should be able to handle our childhood feelings much better and face it calmly. That's it. I expressed my foundness towards Guo Shu Qiao 2003 Aug 6. which I should have done 15 years ago. bit like a fiction ^.^
Wednesday, August 06, 2003
Ok, like any tide, it will fall and participate. What am I talking about. Finally the interview took place, I didn't realise how fluent it goes. Now the hard part really lies on the cutting. To find one particular phrase and put them together ain't easy even with a super fast computer. Maybe I need to buy some more ram. Making film and its website now is ever more exciting. Forgive my poor English. To pass NATTI needs 70% of more to earn just 5 immigration mark if I need it.
Well, well, it's a great expirience to interview people. As well as making it. ALl I need to do now is to get the script right, making few skits (2 I am thinkining). Plus I am inspired by the United Airline's website about my film website. It's all exiciting. I feel like that I am a fulll time media student. Really much where are all the assignments. I need to work on them do I?
One assignment is unbelivably ask you to go to the museam and that is for a comp3511 subject. Do I ever want Caroline to be slimmer just because I want to be more physically attracted to her? Ask yourself.
Well, well, it's a great expirience to interview people. As well as making it. ALl I need to do now is to get the script right, making few skits (2 I am thinkining). Plus I am inspired by the United Airline's website about my film website. It's all exiciting. I feel like that I am a fulll time media student. Really much where are all the assignments. I need to work on them do I?
One assignment is unbelivably ask you to go to the museam and that is for a comp3511 subject. Do I ever want Caroline to be slimmer just because I want to be more physically attracted to her? Ask yourself.
