Expression at the Age of 21

Skip to the point. 9900 AU /= 15000 AU

Hey, buddy, there is a big gap there. Should you ignore it? 600 + 3000 + 2400 = 6000 + 9900 - 1400 = 14500.00 OMG still 500 short. Problematic, if you ask me.
Yes, I made my mind. I am going to run it only once again at 2399.00 That is all. Considering what 2399 can buy, it's still impressive. Sydney Buyers.

A plan is needed to catch the job. 1/2 hour dedicated to job hunting? Maybe. Priority again. Burden, and work commitment.

I am panting and sweating of the day. Summer came in just one day. "If I call you one more time and you say no, I am not going to call you ever again." - Rod, even though it's rational, hard to take it. Plus irrational nights before creates perfectly bad mood before turning 22. I began to feel a huge tide is coming.

270000 didn't last long in the movie world. 1 day for movie is quite nothing. Now it's close to finish, I am satisfied. Aileen's mum is Chinese. That means she is half Chinese, oh my God. Um, you sure about that?

Hey, hey: Does anyone know Bohan's Camera is missing? 12:35AM I still can't find it. It is sort of werid to think that it is actually possibly being stolen. Um...Not a nice thought. It brought me down quite for a whie.

News Flash: I met Nat's Bf after the show. Wow, wow. Nat's got a bf, I should know earlier. Wah. Um, let me think what to say. (Queensland)

Alien's mix-blood. Haha, that explains everything as well. It is a tough crowd night, but with confidence we did well. Now, ultimate choice, now party or wake up in your own bed. I chose the later option. Now I am at home blogging. That's nerdy. Have I told you that I chase the rabit and missed my bus.

Talking to Jenny just then. You guessed it, haha, not coming. Um... not good. That's supportive is it? Reasoning again with Caroline is not fun after you discover a possible theft in the afternoon + miss the bus. De Er: International Speaking like Pirate Day.

CAMERA, yes what if it is really stolen. I AM VERY HAPPY I CAN GET A NEW ONE. You really think so. No. Well the truth is I did cry a bit after watching my own movie. It's not because it's that moving, it's because I want to cry. So many to do, so little time. I wonder why I am here blogging. With increasing number of people starting reading my blog. I have another ultimate choice to make : private or public blog.

I like Nat you see. But she's got a bf. - such statement, if seen by A -> B -> CDE -> ALL
Um... problematic. That also makes the blog less explicit. (Recall: album labels, containing explicit language) Is she hot? Do you want to go her?

22, I am not as young as many thought. Last night's massage with Jo is funny. Geek. Have you finished everything you wish to say.

Temporary, to understand some movies, you have to know no matter how many pain you are suffering, lost your camera, hurt your knees, you have to perform on stage super happy. Explicitly, the audience don't give a fuck. More explicitly, the director might say SHIT, we lost one cast member if you hit by a car (let me elaborate the point a little bit better, when you hit by a car, the first thing came to their mind MIGHT be we lost a cast member rather than you died). Wait wait, that's way to explicit. But that is true in some respect. Something you don't put on your mouth didn't mean you don't think about it. People have their concerns.

Now I know what Rinka is talking about, sometimes you feel people is selfish. That's something we all have to deal with, that's probably why have close friends who can care about you like they care about themselves is precious.

What you want to do with the Camera? No one to blame, right. I start to concern what covers my eyes now is revue and glorious crowd in the seats. Once it's all over. Hey hey, I got to know big brother even further now. Revue is bit like big brother. once it's finished, we all have to get back to our real life.

New point, when you lost your camera, by default you are down. Once in a show enviroment is not that popular to be unhappy. Well what can you do, sometimes no one can control it, that's why someone invented 'pretend to be happy', and we do it all the time. Night, about to make my tear-generating film due next Friday Night.

Before I was not sure why people getting closer so fast in big brother. Now I understand, just look back Training Days 1 is only 15 days away from now, I already found myself bond with many people in the revue, not to mention the 3 months big-brother. (and plus they live together all 24hours)

What you call it speed intimacy. It's cool. Whatever.

The massage last night with Jo is entirely funny. As Jo described, 'he sat on my ass and completely creamed me...' and guess what people video taped it, that is quite cool. Bex get hurt, it is great spirit she is still performing in the end. The video Laurie and Lizzie took is astounding. THen I get to find out who pushed my hands down in the final posing time, it was Nat. I felt myself being less considerate, I should only use one hand and only one hand to pose, or otherwise I will block someone like Nat. Ok, here is the hard part, shall I tell Nat that I am sorry for blocking her, actually I did not. I will, go things like 'um... oh, Nat I watched the video last night, block.. blah. that'll do.'

Sammy's mortol bike is cool, Lily enjoyed it quite much. After join the revue kissing hugging people become more common to me. Wow, that is a change for good.

Up to the CSE revue reloaded and revealed, many great ideas came to my mind, I want to ensure it happens on the day 27th Sep.

it will publish instantly. Lily is new to this area.

Last night's show is hit as I mentioned before. Now there are 557 hits ans 20 visitors to my site. That's sweet, the power of the group. Last night I had an idea of extra bit of the HASTWBB, I am not sure if it's going to get proved. But anyway I will stry.

The second night is even better than the first one, we all can see it. That makes me high. It makes everyone high. The audience simply gives better responses this time. I was a little nervous, but my Happy Asian Sing Time with Bo Bo went well, audience starts singing which is funny.

Kosol, if you are reading this, I have to tell you that you are very naughty passing the link address to Becks. It is really a mixed feeling here, it's sweet that someone else knows your inside world like Becks, however I still feel slightly embarassed. Kosol, you hear me? Naughty.

Back to the revue, it is just gets better, I am really happy for it. Harold is likely to come as well, that'll be fantastic.

Here is the observation log, as I didn't get the chance to finish last night as I am very tired. That is the natrual step, what do you do after the revue. Last night I was rushing out to see my friends, when I see none I felt left alone, even though al the cast members cheers me up, but really when you see 5 or 6 circles people talking and you can find none.

This theory further applies to tonight, when aim walks out, she look around for her friends, she saw none. She frawned, I understand perfectly. I wish to cheer her up, and I know how. I pass her the photo, she looks just cute in it, she surely smiled, I am happy too.

One day when my friends is coming on Thursday it'll be a great night for me. I so much want to get the video finished by that date, but the question is how. Good one hey. um, let me think. THe murder case makes me shiever.

Last night it was fantastic, people applause, my blood goes high. Esp the Happy Asian Sing Along Time with Bobo.
That is absolutely a hit. Around 3pm K7 called me wish to see me, at the same time Caroline is expected to see me at the same time. Then I have to make a choice. It seems that I have made the right choice. Miss UNSW is cut, when they told me, but the solo singing really attrracts me, soon 4pm then we started doing it, it all makes sense. I am nervous in the beginning then on stage, here I am. It was a success, people pat on me after I got off stage, it was such a great feeling. Thanks to Sammy for his suit. But as I can perceived, the suit is expensive, he probably. Then after the show, it's the seeing parents time. But the diertor requires us to remove makeups before we can go out. Then in a huge hurry i went to wash my face off, then I saw Keivin, (insert: when I say lights up, I can actually see everyone's face in the adcidnece) that is cool as well, even keivn came, that does surprise me. It was great feeling with everyone filled in the theatre. Have to go now, have assignment due soon.

It seems that Luke is leaving Annie not because that they are unhappy just because he doesn't like Annie that much. Eh-Eh. That makes me feel strong symposy towards Annie esp after she told me that ' maybe he will come back to me' That statement is enough to make me cry. Really like in the movie. Ok, now it back to Caroline, natually one might suggest.

The situation is different, as blah, blah and blah. The end.

Suprise, surprise.

Chatting with Annie occasionally. Found out she broke up with Luke as well. And Luke's reason is quite shocking described as, in the beginning Luke feels lonely that's why he asks Annie out, but then now he has new friends, feels nothing to say to Annie.

Well then I told Annie, count myself, I know three couples breaking up this months. Choices I have to make this year, it seeming not entriely satisfy in the direction of my life esp that 2900AU, I still don't have a clue when can I get them back.

Yet I know I wish to keep myself happy and healthy, things will become better evntually at least on the physical layer. What more can I say.

The moon makes me realise it is so beautiful in little bay. Just a small surbub in sydney yet beautiful, magnificient. That's right, sometimes I felt something like that exactly hard to capture.

There are so many great girls out there and I am stuck with the user-not-friendly Caroline, she hit me today with a water bottle. (everyone laugh). Anyway, it's over.

It's nice Angie came again today. Surprisingly her bf (who also is a 1st Med student) is short and really average looking. Matching with ok-looking and energetic Angie, I certainly felt there is something not right. Maybe due to the fact that I am Libera tend to make things balanced. Just like Aim like I said in the previous blah. It is really just that. That part of the energy inspire the rest, at least that quality attracts me. Tell me about it I know nothing else. That's how people get attracted, at first sight what is good and positive get to see. I like WenBaiHu's definition about the difference and love and like. When you like someone you wish to have that good quality that attracts you, on the other hand love is unconditional blah. So that's exactly I don't believe in love.

It's like looping around into the status I was in 10 years ago when I was 11. Really much I asked Rinka, you had a sweet boyfriend, just before you are going to get married, he lost his leg. (even just one). Think twice, I suppose Rinka/Jenny they will all choose to leave their one leg bf and marry someone else.

The moral is going down. hey, what does bible say, submit to your husband. I am not sure if it's compulsory to marry someone that you have to love each other really. Not sure about bible. But in the rest of the world I know. The world is pretty bad, that is thinking negatively. But the truth is no one cares about you, really. Think twice. When you have fun, they will be with you, but when you are not. Eh-Eh.

I increasing realise that when i go to the revue, when i get to know more people, when I am having fun. But when you are not. na. Dam, I watch too much big brother, I am thinking things in a big brother way all the time now, some thing like alpha male, small cat, big cat. I am not saying it's harmful or anything. Damn. I am going to be 22, and yet I still need a lot of growing up to do. Not necessarily some parties to crash, some girls to screw. That sounds rude. Yes it is. I normally don't say things like that, but heck, it's meant to be personal right.

The show is on next Wednesday, I felt my dances are a lot more comfortable now, yet many things to improve. The assignment is due next Friday is it?

What to do after the revue and my documentary. I need to work. Do I think about it later or think about it now.

In the beginning there is suggestions that I should keep the iPaq, now it is the suggestion I should keep the 150 extra desposit. Weired. I think I would even if I know it's of low moral. But Liz somehow convinced me to keep quiet.

It has been a easy day, I don't feel much assignment at this stage. The show will be on next Wednesday, I just couldn't blieve it's all going to happen. All ready? Questionable? We are going to have 3 show runs on Sunday, and formal tech run Tuesday Night.

I have to agree, Kosol and I had a lot to talk about. We are easily get excited about the topic the ohter party initiated, that is ... not happening before. Well, it's cool to have someone to talk to. University is a wonderful place to know a lot of different people. I am very tired last night after rehersal stilll hav to finish HCI on time. About to make a laptop sale in 24 hours. Semi-excited. It is really busy, I have to say.

I discovered numerous things few days ago about the features of Blogger which made me myself happier with it. For instance the title line. In addition I also successfully created a place for myself to blog for the age 23. It's all cool now. But still I am asking myself, I made everything fancy as it appears, is it for me or for the public to see. If no one is going to see it ever why bother.

Yes, it does matter, as I can see. I do blog for myself, if someone sees it someone sees it. Sweet.

bohan.blogspot.com now used for expression at the age of 22

ON THE 28th Sep this expression at the age of 21 will move to bohan21.blogspot.com
In addition I like to announce, I love blogger.com I just established information-garage.blogspot.com it's great place for me to dump informations to. Convinient for web research.

Expression at the age of 21 is going to its end very soon as I am turning 22 in just 17 days. How scary indeed.

I love to blog more, but I am truly busy. Here is an email I wrote to Nanxi regard RAM updates

Dear Nanxi: (if you have time, please read, it's going to change your view towards ram upgrade)

Sometimes the type of the RAM has been over emphasized.

The price of a 256MB DDR can buy 512 general RAM
and yet about the performance, 256DDR is faster in single application, but not in quanttity.

So if you want to speed up your entire computer, and you like to have several application running at the same time.
I will defeitnly recommend PC133 512MB at the price of a 256MB DDR.

There are lots of myth about computers, and many of them are incorrect, such as DDR is better, DDR is better if provided 512MB DDR vs 512 PC133, since DDR runniing at 266MHz it is faster when you running photoshop.

BUT VERY IMPROTANTLY. one critical performance bottle neck is the hard disk, currently most hard disk running at 7200 Round Per Second, the faster hard disk on the market is the 15K = 15000 Round Per Second. AND GUESS WHAT, even that hard drive is 100 times slower than the slower PC133 RAM.

And how does computer work, when you click on internet exploer, it actually loads the internet explorer program from the hard disk to the RAM, that takes time depend on your hard disk speed and processor speed, then things remain in the ram, so that's why you feel sometimes things are slow to launch, once launched it feels better.

So how much ram is enough. NEVER. why?
windows needs approx 512MB for it's very normal operations, BUT I DON"T HAVE 512MB RAM, my computer still runs ok. THAT is because of the Virtual Memory, which is the computer use part of the hard disk, think them as RAM. but as I just staed, the fastest hard disk is 100 times slower than the slowest RAM.

Here is a typcial senario: you have 3 application running: WORD, EXPLOER, PHOTOSHOP

ok here is how much ram each one consume

SYSTEM - 200MB approx
WORD - 20MB approx
EXPLORER - 50MB approx
PHOTOSHOP - 100MB approx
OTHERS - 100MB approx

that is the computer needs 470MB
you only have 128MB

then you switch to PHOTOSHOP, ideally, it'll be best if all the photoshop sits on the ram, so processor can process it at its full potential.

BUt hey, you only got 128MB, so it will let photoshop uses 20MB of the RAM, leaves the rest 80MB on the hard disk, that makes your computer appears SLOW!!!!

When you have 1GB of ram, everything can be running in the RAM, then it'll be sweet.

So go with as many RAM as you can afford, since overall it saves life, improve effieciency.'


BOHAN. THANK YOU VERY MUCH.

I wish to do a million things at once, assignments, websites, revues, Natti, relationships. Those are just few. I just never got enough time to do all those. Talking about relationship, I think it's better if it's just going to end peacefully. I can't see myself marrying Caroline and having life like that. It was not meant to be. It's better we apart each other, to find someone who's better for our future. Full Stop.

However I do want to remain friends with Caroline, maybe it'll be better that way. Full Stop. It is sad to end a relationship like that, but if it's the right thing to do, do it sooner always better than later. I can't look after you any more, Caro. And I don't love you as much as I used to. It is all true. I don't love you enough to marry you. It might sound sad, it's better to reveal the truth before everything is too late, before we are 25.

OMG. CAUTION: hit REPLY ALL button really really carefully. I got myself into big trouble. Oh man, it's hard to tell a story. Better just copy and paste. READ IT UPSIDE DOWN, it makes the most sense. If I did read the very first email carefully enough, and plus if I didn't hit on reply all, things might be much better. Well, now this afternoon I have written 4,5 apology letters to all those who wrote to me. I realise I must pissed off many people. Oh, Bohan, it's a good lesson, it's a good time to grow. Think twice before you do anything.

From:
"Paul Michael Ayre" | This is spam | Add to Address Book
To:
bche562@cse.unsw.EDU.AU
Date:
Wed, 3 Sep 2003 13:17:34 +1000 (EST)
Subject:
Re: 12:20 PM - I am not complaining


In future, you should not be so selfish about this type of thing. You
should know that we are going to give performers equal credit. Any
questions along the lines of the ones you asked should be directed to
Kesavan or myself.
You have upset quite a few people,
I will let them know that you apologize
Paul
> Forgive me for being technically ignorant.
>
> I just hit reply all, without reading in the details
> of who's on the address bar.
>
> I am not aware of my action. I do apologize for my
> negligence.
>
> But all I want to say is I have no such intention.
>
> Bohan
>
> --- Paul Michael Ayre
> wrote:
> >
> > Hi Bo,
> >
> > You should NOT have sent that email to .all
> >
> > It is not your place to announce ANYTHING to that
> > list. THe only reason
> > the performers are not up there at the moment is
> > because K7 and I have not
> > gotten around to sending the web people our final
> > lists of performers.
> >
> > It was very disappointing that you would announce a
> > thing like that to
> > everyone. Especially to the web design people who
> > have just been doing as
> > much as they can to get the site up and running
> > today.
> >
> > I will talk to you about this tonight,
> > Paul
> >
> > > Everyone have a look at this page:
> > >
> > > http://cgi.cse.unsw.edu.au/~cserevue/teams.html
> > >
> > > You click on any of the
> > followings(Directors...Tech
> > > Crews), it gives you the real names of the people
> > > invovled.
> > >
> > > However, when you click on Performers, it gives
> > you
> > > NOTHING (THAT IS THE ONLY CATEGORY did not list
> > any
> > > names at all.) well, I am not complaining, however
> > as
> > > performer myself, we have been trained for many
> > hours,
> > > I think ALL OF THE PERFORMERS deserve to have
> > their
> > > name written on the Performers' tab. (ESP all the
> > rest
> > > category got their names written)
> > >
> > > Directors
> > > Producers
> > > Administrators
> > > Band
> > > Costumes and Makeup
> > > Designers
> > > Front of House
> > > FX
> > > Marketing and Sales
> > > Scripts
> > > Tech Crew
> > > Videos
> > > Well-Being
> > >
> > >
> > >
> > >
> > >
> > > --- dopey wrote:
> > > > On Tue at 11:53 , Marc Yu-San Chee
> > > > wrote...
> > > > > Are we good to go guys?
> > > >
> > > > OATH! WE ARE LIVE!
> > > >
> > > > Thanks to a late night hacking session, by
> > > >
> > > > - Dave
> > > > - Rex
> > > > - Eli
> > > > - Myself
> > > >
> > > > we now have a new website design.. and loaded on
> > a
> > > > live location.
> > > >
> > > > Rock on over to
> > > > www.cserevue.org.au
> > > > (which just redirects to:
> > > > www.cse.unsw.edu.au/~cserevue/ )
> > > >
> > > > Now.. we realise that there may be some problems
> > > > with the team lists -
> > > > some people may be missing, and some extra
> > people
> > > > listed. Please, if
> > > > you notice problems like this, send a polite
> > email
> > > > about it to
> > > > cserevue.web@cse.unsw.edu.au.
> > > >
> > > > SWEEEET!
> > > >
> > > > -Matt
> > > >
> > > >
> > >
> > >
> > > =====
> > > Yours sincerely,
> > > Bohan Chen
> > >
> > > bche562@CSE
> > > ------------------
> > > Cell:(61)-(0)413767020
> > > MSN Messenger Account:
> > > chenbohan@hotmail.com
> > >
> > > __________________________________
> > > Do you Yahoo!?
> > > Yahoo! SiteBuilder - Free, easy-to-use web site
> > design software
> > > http://sitebuilder.yahoo.com
> > >
> >
> >
> >
>
>
> =====
> Yours sincerely,
> Bohan Chen
>
> bche562@CSE
> ------------------
> Cell:(61)-(0)413767020
> MSN Messenger Account:
> chenbohan@hotmail.com

// posted by Bohan @ 4:49 PM

Last night I was starting to miss Caro a bit. After 10 days no seeing each other. I miss her. She appears lovely now, since I didn't hear her yelling at me for some time. 18/36 wasn't plesant results for my first HCI assignment. However the tutor will scale it up according to other tutor's group's performance. But again it'll take a while. Tonight we can get our T-shirt and we'll going to wear it every single day. Can you belive it? Promotion is really important. Maybe I should get the HCI textbook.

On the same time, I need to find out more about NATTI training, my parents are now excited about the idea. I will certainly try. Many other great ideas. Have I written about the idea which is establish a website selling high quality ...yes I did. Last night I was watching the FX people's work. It was simply something I can't do and that makes me very interested. Indeed, it looks good even though not professional. It's going to be very fun.

It ended finally at 916. And instantly today 233 hits from 6 visitors. Then some ideas hit me straight, it'll be great opportunity for me to sell my documentary. After I screening my movie. I am going to set up a simple information site (beautiful as you can imagine) CSE REVUE (THE BACKSTAGE) contains *** pictures *** videos. $1.95 and then they think they are buying the pictures and videos of themselves. Yes it is true. However on the other hand, I will bondle my Movie in the disc as well, self promotion is done. That can ensure somewhat 10 copies + from revue people, if I can manage to sell 20 from the interview people. 30 Copies sold sounds good enough to me. And I just confirmed that 27th is the last day. It all sounds great. It's going to be a exciting month.

I was covered in Black from Head to Toe. I am not exergating or anything. Top, my head is covered by BLACK hair, then BLACK jumper, BLACK t-shirt, BLACK pants and BLACK socks, BLACK shoes. I am a man in black, I feel SEXY. WOW. I wish Caro can see me today to see how handsome her bf is. Well, look good makes me feel good. Well, I found most people notice my dramatic change on Sunday just by putting my hair up. In this respect I have 'superman' potential, two different looks by switching hair style and glasses. I need to weary glasses on the night?

I am more than pleased to know that in the end, the total hits on 31st Aug (US TIME) is 915 (26 visitors) it is simply a sound proof when you have the mass, the kind of power it generates. Anyway, I am also pleased to know that the last show of the CSE REVUE is right on my birthday. That is kind of special gift I can never dream of. Perform on the day I am 22 and get applaused at. (No to mention super party after the final show. I wish it'll be the case. It's going to worth all my efforts I am putting in right now. For sure I hope I can get few things sorted out before that day, like sell my Tablet, Get my shift regular, get my study under control, make my parents happy and hopefully a happy relationship. That'll be good, wouldn't it. 50 minutes to go before I have to attend the tut. Speed up.